A & B - a beginning. Two equal parts of a growing and effervescent relationship.
This blog is both a description of and an active participant in our journey through life. Here we document our way to 1,000 dates - the joys, challenges, growing pains - and all the in-betweens.
A: It was free hat day at the Blue Jays game so we met up and got a baseball cap that’s actually pretty nice! I am always worried the corporate branding will be intrusive and make me not want to wear whatever it is (like last year’s winter hat had “All State” on the side flap and I refuse to wear it now!) but the Honda logo was small and at the back. I was happy about that. I think it’s important, as a company, to make your brand known but not so much that it interferes with your product. We’ve moved away from logo-centric clothing, and I couldn’t be happier about that.
B: I just kind-of laughed at A’s comment “we’ve moved away from logo-centric clothing.” Simply because she makes a subconscious series of choices sound like a conscious, abrupt choice. It’s true, A and I don’t have a lot of logos all over ourselves and we value what we purchase. I think that is the important thing, to recognize that we ALL have a lot of power as consumers. So, it’s about more than logos and looks, but what the company stands for and where the product comes from.
So we lined-up to get our hats. I love the Blue Jays and for some reason I want to be there for all the giveaways. I’ll probably give the hat to my Dad (I think I did already?) It was fun to be there with A and the rest of the Jays fans. I think Sports can bring people together in such an amazing way.
Date #365 - Sunday, August 10, 2014
A: We saw Weaves play SummerWorks and - ho-ly-shit. This group is incredible. They had three interpretive dancers perform with them the entire set and they were also incredible. The experimental, melodic rock that is Weaves really complimented the jerky, modern, expressionist style of the dancers and it was really an experience of wonder and… confusion. A few times I was like, “What. Is. Happening. Here.” but in the most positive of ways. I love this feeling of totally abandonment of conventional performance. They invited everyone to stand and dance and we formed a sort of circle. B took my hand and kissed me on the cheek and I blushed because people all around could see and (not that they even cared about what we were doing but…) I don’t think I’ll ever not blush at times like these. I am happy to say that PDA doesn’t make me an uncomfortable as it used to and I’m learning to love exhibiting love instead of being a sarcastic and frigid girlfriend. B gives so much to the world. That is one thing I’m learning from him.
B: This performance totally blew me away. It was so great to share such an all-encompasing performance with so many people. It was happy, and dynamic, and musically and visually incredible.
It was a rare time where I felt an entire room’s insecurities and judgement and ego all disappear. Everyone was up and dancing and I wanted it all to keep going. I had such a blast being there with A. It was so joyous!!
SummerWorks: The Container, Kamino Family, & Depressing Children’s Tales
Date #363 - Saturday, August 9, 2014
A: B and I woke up fairly early and parted ways to work. I knew he had a lot to do and I wanted to eat and drink he amazing Bridgehead coffee my friends gifted to us from Ottawa so I headed home. We met up again for SummerWorks, our third day of performance exploration.
The Container was first; a performance INSIDE a shipping container. It was really hot and I sweat a lot and B was all, “You were hot in there?” after and I tried really hard not to let my jaw drop to the floor. It was SO hot. But the show was really good if only for it’s situational experience. Seeing a performance in such a small space, unique to any play I’d ever see, thrilled me. An older man saw us later and said that, if the play had been on stage, it wouldn’t have went anywhere. We both agreed.
We went to Ben Kamino’s 6 hour durational dance performance after. His father and brother were also performing with him; his father a teacher, building things and such, and his brother a graffiti artist I believe. B and I met Ben at Long Winter last year and also saw his performance at SummerWorks last year with Sook-yin Lee (Host of CBC’s DNTO). I’d say we’re big fans of his. He is incredibly talented and seeing the last bit of his expressionist dance with his family and strangers scattered around a basement-like set up was really interesting.
We saw Unintentionally Depressing Children’s Tales (by caterwaule) after at LOT. I loved a couple of the stories. They’re all written by Erin Flink and she really inspired me, mostly because I have a few half written tales myself. The whole setup was in a giant blanket fort too, and we curled up with pillows on the floor. I really enjoyed it and was happy to listen to the stories and watch the shadow puppets on a blanket with B.
B: THIS WAS SUCH AN AWESOME DAY OF THEATRE!!! I never thought I’d write that….ever!
I think it was this day that A brought up how festivals can normally be exhausting - both physically and emotionally - yet SummerWorks was different. We spoke about this and I think that the festival isn’t exhausting not because SummerWorks’ performances are emotionally devoid, rather, the festival isn’t exhausting because the performances are so supremely emotionally invigorating.
After The Container I do admit I was pretty exhausted. I was expecting to be more emotionally drained from such intense subject matter (smuggling, rape, refugees, immigration) but it was more a feeling of discomfort. Everything was a bit too surreal, and I honestly wish the play was more realistic (yes, even more realistic than being in a shipping container).
Ben Kamino’s Father & Sons broke my heart. It was quirky and weird (much like many things Kamino does) and, while watching, an odd dynamic between father and sons played out. While Dad worked with the younger son on the fort built out of graffiti’d walls, Ben Kamino danced and gyrated around silently, seemingly trying to get their attention. It all reminded me of helpless cries for attention and a yearning for my parents’ own affection. Then, after the fort was done, baby Ben - for he seemed a child now - climbed in to listen to his Mother read The Giving Tree.
Maybe it was the familiarity of this book that I read as a child, or how the theatre space closely resembled my basement as a child, that moved me so much. After I told Ben how incredible his work was and I began to tear-up. I just wanted to hug him and hold him, like hugging and holding the child-version of myself.
After the play A and I went to get Poutine at Poutini’s. A’s never been and I think it is the best poutine in the city. This is also where she learned that I mix my poutine (doesn’t everyone?) and gave me the same look you see in the photo.
The first story of Unintentionally Depressing Children’s Tales was A Light Well Lit. A and I have been searching for the perfect handle for the Social Media accounts for our new company - Porch Light - and when we heard this we knew it was perfect. We owe credit to the amazingly talented Erin Fleck and we plan on showering her with gifts when our company launches.
SummerWorks: Bitter Medicine and Two Brendans
Date #362 - day, August 8, 2014
A: I stopped by B’s work and got introduced to the wonderful people I’ve heard so much about. The office he’s at is really neat, open concept and modern and filled with young spirits. I was really excited to be there and even got a strawberry daiquiri to boot!
B and I left to go to Bitter Medicine, a play about living with schizophrenia that I enjoyed, despite it being a difficult story to tell. It was a one man show, too, and those are really are to captivate. Afterward we got free stew at Bolt because they were closing and watching Two Brendans down the street. Our favourite PR partner was there, too, and it was great to catch up. She sent me the sweetest postcard wishing me a well recovery and I was happy that B and I have forged this new friendship with such an awesome person!
We walked home late, and I really loved it. The walk to B’s is so calming, through neighbourhoods that I feel so safe in. I’d love to live over there somewhere… with B…
The office A speaks of is this marketing agency in downtown Toronto. I’m really happy she got to see the space because I’ve been spending most of my time there and I think it’s good for her to have a mental picture of where I am.
I’ve always wanted to visit Bolt. It’s this super amazing, vegan, nutritious spot near my gym but I’ve never gone. It was great!
I also was super excited to see “Two Brendans”. Brendan Canning is one of the founders of Broken Social Scene and an amazing musician. I was completely transfixed by the visual that accompanied his music. I went to other places and was lost in the best of ways. I felt a lot of things and, at the end, after a long and drawn-out improvisational duo between Brendan and his violinist felt extremely sad in the best of ways.
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Anonymous: B, you realize peeps aren't vegetarian, right?
Some peeps are vegetarian.
Thanks for the question :)
The Zero Theorem
Date #360 - Wednesday, August 6, 2014
A: We went to see Terry Gilliam’s The Zero Theorem at The Royal Cinema down the street from B’s house. Believe it or not, it was my first time there and I was SHOCKED at how spacious the place is!! I used to live at the Bytowne in Ottawa, completely enamoured by independent, art house, foreign, and subjective films. Honestly, I’m ashamed it took me almost 3 years to get to the Royal and it is perhaps this reason I put it off even longer than I normally would have. When we sat down, B said, “First time here!” and I replied, “Me too!” He said, “No. Your first time here.” I felt silly not remembering that he’d been there before. Places like this make me really happy, though, and that feeling slipped away fairly quickly. It was an especially sweet night because B and I hadn’t seen each other in A WEEK AND HALF - I know - so it was a little date night (my favourite kind) that allowed us to connect and poke each other’s faces again.
The film itself was alright. The production design is, of course, spectacular, and the characters were quirky and unique but there was a disconnect, at least for me, between story and execution. Either way, I’d recommend it. Gilliam’s work is always an adventure in imagination.
B: I am a big fan of Terry Gilliam and was super pleased to find-out A is too. It’s great when you can learn new things about someone even though you’ve been together for over a year. It was also A’s first time at the Royal which was super-cool.
The Royal is old and beautiful and it appears in a bunch of films shot in Toronto.
Zero Theorem was weird like many of Gilliam’s films and showed actors Christopher Waltz, Tilda Swinton and Matt Damon in a beautiful and quirky new light. The question of whether life is meaningful or meaningless, and the madness that can come with pondering such questions, were showcased wonderfully. I love these high-level ideas. A and I didn’t really talk much about it after the film and now I realize I will have to ask her her thoughts on this.
I think it is important to talk and think about life and its meaning; not too much, but enough to recognize that you can have purpose and influence…or at least enough to utilize the marvellous organ we call a brain.
Recovery Day 7 - Walking, shopping, working
Date #357 - Saturday, July 26, 2014
A: Finding things that don’t require me to stare at a screen are great - so we went for a walk. A photo walk; sauntering around Church-Wellesly Village and over to some bookstores on Yonge. I also got a bunch of M&Ms because there was a promo code inside to get 2 free movie tickets. Worth it!
Spending time in the bookstore was awesome. B and I picked up a couple books - I got some pulpy syfy from the 40’s and another Bradbury book which was recommended. B got a haiku book and a Richter coffee table book. I smiled like a goof when he told me his book choices. He’s basically a dream of mine. I mean, a haiku book. Swoon.
B: A adorably worked out the cost of these bags of M \&Ms and how many you would have to buy to get the 2 movie ticket deal vs the cost of 2 movie tickets and determined it was worth buying the M&Ms. I was worried about all the sugar and also that A can’t eat M&Ms because of her teeth being broken…which meant I would probably eat them all.
We went though and she was super happy. It was cute.
I love being in bookstores. I love being surrounded by all that knowledge. I can’t wait to have my own book of poetry in there. It terrifies me and that means I must do it. I bought a book of Haikus by Masaoka Shiki (I think) and I book of paintings from Gerhardt Richter (one of my favourites).